I would say that you’re not alone and I’ve personally gone through what you’re going through so I know it’s not easy. But try and remember that suicide is never, EVER the solution. No matter what you’re going through I promise you that things will get better as time goes by. If you still continue to have these thoughts please talk to someone you can confide in. Talk to a counselor or even a doctor. I’ve done it and there’s nothing to be embarrassed about in seeing one. They’re trained to be able to help you get through tough times. And you CAN get through it, I promise.